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I found a box of optical disks from 2009 and before. They reminded me of all the things I used to install on my WinXP box, and the stuff I downloaded and consumed with them (animu, music, etc). I wanted to get rid of all of these disks, but a parent said "hey why not give that to me, and I'll give it back sometime". Although it was exciting to sweep through all this old stuff, I still have the feeling that it would have been better to forget about it.

I have a similar feeling towards everything these days. I got rid of many acquaintances because simply remembering them while they are no longer useful for any purpose/activity was annoying. I want to be on a technological bleeding edge, and not care about old standards, backward compatibility and other burdens. I'd like to have a moderate music collection, few books and few movies bundled in one big package that I keep, and the rest of the media I consume would come and go, just like people in real life. I often feel a need to archive certain things, and make apocalypse-proof, anti-piracy-proof, complete backups. I sometimes even make notes to remind myself of the context of something. Keeping myself in an old context so I can still like the things I'm guarding is rather tiring, but if I stop, I will not see the reason why I guard them so persistently, and I'll just get rid of them.

This tendency has made me dislike much of literature and music that hold references to the present, memes, politics, concrete things. On the other hand, it helps me appreciate older/archaic things; also more abstract stuff, be it arts or philosophy. I'm uncomfortable around the sciences however, for most people that have to do anything with them can get rather dogmatic.