>>17165>All of it is fake, shallow, bull soykaf.All of it is bullsoykaf, most of it is shallow but not that much of it is fake. It might look that way but it's actually 100% authentic shallow bullsoykaf.
>I guess the most concerning thing I've been experiencing is an extreme detachment and alienation from both myself and the world around meOf all the things you've described, this is the least concerning. Detachment is not a disorder.
>as though I am an empty being observing a hallucination of reality.You are.
>I float through life without having much in the way of life experiencesBullsoykaf. You have experiences just like anyone, right now you're experiencing reading this and that's as real and meaningful as any experience.
>hardly remembering what I do from day to day because it's like I'm in a dreamThat's because you are in a dream.
>I've found that I am increasingly empty in the roots of my being.You have been looking in the wrong places, you have found that your mind is empty but that is not the root of what you are. Listen closely to that silence within your mind, there is something beneath it.
>It's as though they're completely ignorant of all of the things I am experiencingJust mostly, not completely.
>is that I lack the ability to cope with these negative experiencesShoving your fingers is your ears is a method of coping I suppose, though I don't look down on your for refusing it. To be less of an edgy dick about it, most people do ignore these aspects of life and that's fine, it's as good a way to live as any. You didn't and they're not always easy things to cope with. You're doing fine.
>I don't want to think that I am brokenThen don't. Your mind is empty after all and you are far from broken.
>instead project this brokenness onto the fabric of realityWell I suppose you had to project something.
>clinging to certain strains of social and individualist anarchist thought, existentialism, and GnosticismGood strains, but you're free to let them go. You do not need them and they'll be waiting for you if you ever come back this way.
>I know that probably sounds edgyIf I worried about sounding edgy I'd never open my mouth. Disregard haters, spit truth.
>I try to avoid anything that could shatter whatever is left of my internal world.No you don't. There's a part of you that does, you've seen that, but there's another part of you that screams that it needs someone to hear it. There's a part of you that insists you lay your internal world bare to a group of strangers, on an imageboard no less. That someone would wander past with a hammer was inevitable and there's a part of you that knew that. Your world is going to shatter, you wouldn't have it any other way, and when it does you are going to see something surprising.
>>17203This guy knows what's up. Some small things though.
>you can move closer relative to others, and thus become wiseNo. That isn't how infinity works, 20 is no closer to infinity than 10. The first step to wisdom is the acknowledgement that you are not wise.
>all the information at that point is restricted to really esoteric writings, secret societiesBullsoykaf and this is coming from someone who's read those writings and been initiated into those societies. The secrets of reality are written all around us. From the cracks in the pavement, to the currents of the ocean, to the whistling of the wind and the dancing of a candle flame, wisdom is where you find it and you can find it anywhere in that infinite rorschach.
