>>1552Nigga, just stop thinking of everything as a damn chore that you feel like you have to do and gradually train yourself to want to do stuff.
Just work at your own pace, be a nice person, and seriously, in this day and age nobody worth a damn gives a soykaf about the way you live your life. I have a pal that introduces himself as a meme and a helicopter (not kidding) and people smile and nod and don't give a soykaf because he's a nice person and has no intention of murdering them.
If you want a "good excuse" to do nothing, look into Zen practices. Does anybody look down upon monks because they don't "do something productive?" No, they look up to monks because they already get it. This is life dude, and you don't have to do a damn thing you don't want to.
I'm way happier since I accepted life as being just life and since I don't step on any toes I don't get bitched at. In fact, I'm currently weighing options between florist and war reporter as career choices, and certainly not for the money. Satisfaction is success, but success is a loaded word with a meaning defined by the individual. So just be satisfied and pay little heed to what somebody else says is success.
I bet you feel like a blank canvas because you've expected others to paint you. Well I for one am tired of being told what to do, and am fully prepared to paint myself into my ideal.
fuarrrk money, love company.