No.1757
well, i'm gonna start w/ a little disclaimee that i have never done lsd, but i have done lsa.
my older brother, a friend & i ate morning glory seeds: they both ate 300 seeds, & i ate about 200 because they were worried that i might trip too hard.
they threw up, & i couldn't throw up.
after about an hour, i could see tiny little triangles if i closed my eyes. i decided that was ok. after a while i could see obvious geometry & fractals even w/ my eyes open. it was this that made my brother & our friend decide that i ended up getting the strongest dose.
our friend & i watched some horse cartoons. i think the episode was about them having some kind of crazy dream. the irony was palpable, & the overall experience was magical. the horses had insanely altered figures & voices, & they were beautiful. i wanted to be among these fun & pretty creatures.
after another while, i had this crazy hallucination. i saw these really innocuous, indescribable moving images that i for some reason associated w/ death, but it felt like the beginning of everything for me — it was really uncanny, but i can barely remember the images themselves. i felt the cat clawing @ my leg really hard, but it didn't hurt.
when the images stopped, my brother & our friend were walking me home, & i could hardly articulate any thoughts, hell, i doubt i even had any thoughts. my brother & our friend were trying to communicate w/ me & snap me out of it, even slapping me more times than i even cared to count, but i didn't feel it, & i sure as soykaf didn't have any coherent responses. they were pretty scared for me, & i was none the wiser.
as we approached my apartment, i saw & felt some kind of karmic wheel made of lotus petals of all different colors turning behind my experience & actions. as the wheel turned, i did soykaf & soykaf happened.
eventually it ended w/ me thinking that i ended up being separated from reality, & i mistook the sound of the rain outside for the sound of my seemingly fictional existence fracturing & disintegrating until there was nothing. i was ok w/ it. i let it happen.
& then there was just nothing.
& then i woke up not remembering much of anything until weeks later